Jacify My Statement.

My last chance to be christy cheong.
i think i will drop the idea of having a new yr resolution, i 'll never fufill it anyway.
as if is meant to be broken.

fresh start, a whole new piece of drawing board.
last yr was a colourful one, messy but at least artistic enough.
ups and downs. single.
consolation, no broken heart.

lessons learnt, tears dropped, weight gained, winkles formed.
i have to admit i am old.
so much so that i see small little teeny weeny lines formed at the side of my eyes.
i stood on my weighing machine for the first time ever since the poly check up.
almost broke down crying. you know la... girls..

anyway, being fat is a sin.
you can be ugly but as long as u r fat.
you are out of the league.
admit it! this is reality!

dun agree?
u are a liar.

look at the girls being hooked up in clubs.
ugly lor... in the dark, you can still c that they are ugly.
can you imagine when the place is lighted?
the girls that are hooked up have similar traits.
short, petitte and slim.
not as if i gian being hooked up by some di di lar...
is just that... you know... i dun understand y?!

i am trying so hard... to make it work... my weak will power n my excuse of having no motivation always deter me from achieve it.

give mi the strength