Jacify My Statement.

I am living another life, a lifestyle I never thought I would embark on. Is not exactly the worst, but I certainly have been better. People never understands and they shoved their judgements right into my face. I picked myself up and dust it off, walk out in pride. At least, that's how I feel. The silent compassionate stares are good enough to make me feel sick in the stomach.

Preoccupied myself with something I used to enjoy, doesn't seem to take anything off my mind. Nothing seems to make me enjoy my day, my only consolation is a good chat session with the girls. Rattling about our lives, remind me of the good old spinelli's days.

The road ahead of me is so bleak and gloomy, armed with my qualifications and what's remaining in my bag of 'confidence', I charged ahead. I know domo and the girls are out there, waiting for me to come through the dark hole.

Monday, January 18, 2010, 8:00 PM

Is it weird that I want to be part of your life? Wanting be the one you pour your woes to, listening to you rambling about some far-fetch theories. I don't need you to fulfil any daily quota, is not an obligation. I just need you to do whatever that match your words. Words just sound so cheap.

I know I put down the phone on you to watch my favourite show but I thought you will call me after. You know how much I like watching 'Judge Judy' and you call during then? Calling me when I am at work? Multiple calls, in fact.

I have the same roaster for 2.5yrs, friends can't be bothered to remember, that's fine to me. But someone I care for, who doesn't give a hoot about my routine just doesn't upset me?

I am far from needy but having a boyfriend that is in the same state as me, same area code as me and probably less than 20 mins bus ride from me, and not be able to see him for one freaking week, that's not justifiable.