Jacify My Statement.

Have you ever feel like u been to heaven and was kicked out for no apparent reason? Or have you put in whatever effort to assure someone you care for but is just doesn't seem enough?

I wondered, why do people want to get attached? To be in a turbulence-like relationship? Feeling the high of being loved and loving someone, at the same time, feeling the low of being not good enough and being maligned.

I refused to pick up the phone, not because I am heartless. In fact, is the opposite. I always end up feeling guilty when I hear him all sappy. I know is not my fault but why do I feel so bad when I hear him?! It breaks my heart knowing that I am not the person in the world to bring him happiness, only pain and sadness.

The girls are trying to cheer me up saying that the translator is to blame. But, I know this is the not first and will never be the last fight we have over trivial stuff. I can feel it in my bones. I do.

4:21 PM

Had the chance to get hold of Maybelline's Colossal, which claims to give 9x volume after application and how it doesn't clump. Being a mascara freak, I decided to challenge this wand. The bottle looks fugly, nothing about it attracts my eyes.

Being a good friend, I intend to try it and do a pictorial review on it. Firstly, I need a model to demonstrate the 'magic wand'.

Drum roll please, I present DOMO PLEASH.

This is his left eyes, without any application of Colossal. Pretty.

This is his right eyes, with only one coat of Colossal. Darn Angmohs, they don't even need to curl their lashes. Fucking hell!

As you can see, there's no clumping but that could be because it's new. It claims to give 9x volume but I think they exaggerated it. Overall, it does give his eyes volume but not as much as it claimed, approximately 4x?

Is not too bad from a drug store cosmetic brand and is definitely better than most I had tried.

Look how it opens up his eyes.... pretty indeed.

I will give it 4/5 stars... Do give it a try.

Saturday, November 21, 2009, 10:08 PM

每个女孩身边都有一个不是男朋友的男性朋友- 你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，但为了什么原因你们没能在一起？

也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你；
也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方；
也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已有了另一个人；
也许你回头太迟，他已不再等待；
也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界限。

不过即使你们未曾在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。但你们心里都很清楚知己对对方超逾朋友之间的一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，心理任然认知彼此都很在乎对方。

他有喜欢的人，当朋友的你口头上会帮他追，可是心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他能追到。

当他遇到困难时，你会尽所能帮他，不会计较谁欠谁。

男朋友吃醋时，你会安抚他说你们只是朋友，但你心中总会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，心中都有过这么一个特别却很矛盾的男性朋友。

一开始你不甘心你们之间只做朋友，但久后，才发现这样最好：

你宁可用你的方式去关心他，总好过有一天面临分手的下场；

你心中的这个特别的朋友。。。是谁呢？

3:49 AM

Paul had a party, to honour his last day at his place where he called home for years. He is moving to somewhere away from Indooroopilly and gathered most of his hippy/pothead friends to come together to celebrate his 'moving-on'.

After 12.30am, which most of us are off work, Mitch and crew were waiting outside to 'escort' us to the party. Andrew, the adonis, who much prefer to avoid any social events, was there. Despite knowing I have less than 8 hours of sleep, I went to 'watch'. Texted kim, who bailed on the party,about the rare sight of andrew in a social event.

During the course of the party, Jesse and I were preoccupied with our water war, something that is not uncommon; people seems to like to play water war with me. Running around and was weaving through stoners, to avoid being the ultimate victim of the day. All the guys were against myself and I was fully drenched before 1am.

What amazed me was that the fact there wasn't any hint of anger in me. In fact, it was fun. Everyone who participated were laughing at my detriment but I was happy that I got everyone participating, though at my expense. We weren't gentle and I even pour leftover beers at them, which were sitting randomly around. Was good fun.

Andrew, the usually composed night manager, joined in and I could see that he wasn't exactly uptight and could enjoy a good laugh. The sight of him having fun and laughing with us, is comparable to the sight of a blue moon.

In contrast, kim wasn't in the limelight and based on her tone, I could tell she was irritated by me. I wasn't flirting, far from it, I was just doing a boys thing; something I do when I have fun with Adrian and groomer-friends. She was bitter and was commenting how much chemistry I had with Jesse. Jesse is a good mate and we don't mind having good fun by ribbing each other. Having no sexual agenda, was the foundation of our friendship and can't be compared to Kim's. She tend to forget the fact that I don't exactly have sexual agenda with any of the crews. As such, they don't have to worry they will hurt my feeling by rejecting me.

I left the party before Jesse has the chance to taped me on my chair. All drenched and smelling like overnight maccas ( according to Kim), I walked home and left the party. Surprisingly, the party ended very much after I left. Lesson learnt: Asians are the number one target for party entertainment.

P.S. Not upping myself about my importance.

Sunday, November 01, 2009, 4:14 PM

Finally found time to do RnR. Went to Kim's place for beer and chicken, update on our lives, so on and so forth.Kim got into a relationship with John Stewart, the guy who "mentioned" that I am hot while I was back in Sg. I am glad Kim is happy with him, she deserves someone who loves her. She has so much to give and so much to offer, though I disagree with her being comfortable or her ambition to be a housewife (refusing to find a full time job). At least they put each other in place, while one found the passion to keep drawing, another finally sits down and start writing.

Stewie(John)is a talented comic writer and has his comic published, occasionally exhibit his works in Comic Convention. For those who are interested, you could prolly google Phatsville.

Fine, I found one comic posted on the interweb.

Kim is an aspired novel writer and god, that girl can fucking write.
Check out her work.

factorysketches.blogspot.com

She did the reverend story when she was in yr 12. Impressive indeed and got some sort of youth writer award. Her goal is to complete her factory story by the age of 25, 2 years from now.

Enough of this "digusting" pair who put each other in place and how they love the smell of each other's sweat. Their love story makes me wanna throw up. haha