Jacify My Statement.

Was trying to google one of my ex-friend and prolly stalk her a bit. But all I find is her dirt little secrets. I gotta admit that's more fun.

Saw a link that leads to OK cupid. OK, I have no idea what it was ,but it sounds like a dating site and I ventured in. Feeling like a Private Eye, my blood pumps in an erratic manner and eyes wide alert.

That's when we were 20 years old!!!! Must she do that? She was a lovely girl. Since forever, she joined IRC and whatever to know guys but OK cupid? That sounds like something you will do when we are late 30s and knit/ play with your cats.

Come on lor. The likelihood of finding a great non-RA rated man on such site is nearly zero. I know how it feels to want to be in love but joining dating sites are not a proactive way to know guys.

I saw more profiles from various forums and other random sites. Don't question me about the authenticity of the profiles. I named her nick for her and I know her birthdays and address. I am not trying to expose her to defame her. I just find is interesting, especially after nearly 7 years of separation, our lives had been so different and we still seek the same thing.

Her, love. Me, success.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009, 11:42 AM

Having SWOT this week, a chance to rejuvenate the soul but can't lost mind that exams is just 1.5 weeks from now. A test on my discipline.

I have this evil uncanny feeling last week. Not going to gym for the entire week and stuffed myself with carbs. Thus, have been trying to gym almost every single day to burn off whatever that I had accumulated last week. But I realised one week of sedentary lifestyle has affected my motivation and stamina. Late night instant noodle haunts me, the craving for ice-cream crush me and the idea of slurping on a bowl of laksa thrills me.

I gotta stop all my nonsense and remind myself, this is the last graduation you are ever going to go through. PHD IS OUT OF THE PICTURE so THIS IS IT! Fat gorgeous or look gorgeously slim. COME ON, you decide!

I am typing this while having KFC.... WTH!

Anyway, pic that should have been up ages ago.

This korean place serves delicious chicken !!!! Domo loves the cuttlefish thingy. I reckon the cuttlefish is a hard as rubber. If you are seeking for any main dish, don't bother. WAHAHA

The pic doesn't do justice to the juiciness of the chicken. AUD 28 for a plate of chicken(u can request for all drumsticks)and you can request half soy and garlic (highly recommended) flavour and hot and spicy. At Charlotte St, next to the korean super mart.

Jessica and I went to have dinner at Nathan. The name of the place is pretty dumb, so dumb that I can't remember but the food is decent.

As you can see, the back of the wall is like a wall of fame, filled with pics of god knows who. It's pretty comfy eating place for students in Griffith University Nathan Campus. No pics of the food as yours truly digged into the food the minute it was served. I WAS THAT HUNGRY!

Food wise, alright~~ onli. Nothing special and doesn't deserve us travelling down. Price wise, AUD 10 for a hot place fish something. AUD 3 plus for an iced coffee... Jessica's tea was cheap though.

That's all folks, till den.

Monday, October 26, 2009, 3:27 AM

"Friends come and go at different phrases of your life. They leave because they are seeking a different path from mine."

I don't resent or hate anyone who parted from my life, just admitting the fact that is their time to seek greener pastures. I let go with a smile and wish them all the best.

Being friends with me is not an easy task. My erratic temper and my brutal comments are not something people are willing to embrace. I am glad and grateful for those who stood by me, regardless of my unacceptable behaviours.

I received an email from a friend, a special friend. A friendship that is so strong and yet so weak that staying away is the best option for both of us. I am so glad that xxx is happier ever since. Maybe I was the one who was holding her back, reminding her of things she doesn't need to be remembered. Or maybe, like what Jessica in Qut said, I made her feel small and she can't deal with negative friendships. I couldn't give a fuck to what Jessica said but what she said had set me thinking deep and hard. Could it be me? Could I be that negative that people just can't stay around?

Replied the email. I surprised myself by replying to the email with tears rolling down. Set me thinking about the days we shared and the phone calls we had. The emotion well hidden away were suddenly emerged to the surface. I missed you. You were always on my mind and seeing you smile again assured me that I made the right choice. I hope you get a good job and succeed in whatever you do. Knowing you, you prolly got a job even before you go back.

Perhaps, this is what we need, a closure. Thanks for everything. The Past, the Present and the Future to you.

Friday, October 09, 2009, 2:13 AM

Done with all assignments, but all soul is drained from exhaustion. My body clock has not adjust to pre-assignment days and has kept me awake. Currently, I am away from work and was trying to dig my head into the pile of uni work. The word load in uni is never subsiding, in fact, it is constantly piling up. But during these week of hectic-ness, there is always one person to brighten up the crazy days.

30 March 2009 was when we got together. 6 months later, we celebrated and share our love in our own little ways. He was pressured to give me the best 6months anniversary, to be the perfect boyfriend he deemed I should have. He planned a treasure hunt, around places where we went on dates (around Indooroopilly). His initial thoughts were seeking assistance from both of our friends, to play the hint card giver at the designated locations. But I rejected. Though we didn't exactly have that much fun with the treasure hunt, I love it. Love the fact you put in so much effort, so much time and so much love. Thank you, mwah.

the first card.

Due to my inner shy-ness, I have no intention to put up the others. DEAL WITH IT!

Amid all the assignments, I found time to do show some love to Domo. My fave mini domo is the one with the fringe. Is cute ass!

He mentioned that the greatest gift will be me telling him I love him. (Do note, I didn't say it before, even after so long)

The treasure at the end of the hunt.

Love you.