Jacify My Statement.

Was once told by a master that I have to trust my intuition, for I have a gift. Was doubtful at first, since when I have 6th senses to things befalling on me?! He must be joking. I am not Bird, she has the ability to "foretell".

As I grow wiser and more matured, I have to admit my first impression of people is pretty accurate. Fine, I am highly critical and judgmental towards people. Minus all that, I do a pretty good job.

That's the prelude of what I am going to say.

I SAW CLAIRE! JASON'S GF!
Have never seen her in flesh before. SWEAR TO GOD, I recognised her by seeing her back!!!

She was walking in front of me. One name just flashed to my mind. CLAIRE. I wasn't sure but I am positive. I didn't voiced it out to yiling but waited to see her face. SIDE VIEW... damn... I think is Claire but I still wasn't sure. Being a pain in the arse, I walked ahead of her and turned to have a better look.IS FUCKING CLAIRE! HER CLASSIC GRIN! HER CLASSIC TEETH! HOW CAN ONE WALK AND GRIN AT THE SAME TIME, IN A FOOD COURT?! I told Yiling, one of the few who had the opportunity to view Jason and Claire in glory. All in all, she thinks I am crazy. BUT I SWEAR ON MY MUM'S OLD UNDIES (she loves it), IS FUCKING HER!

What was I thinking there n then?
1 God, is her!
2 Damn she is really cheerful. Walk with a grin?!
3 Eh she not very pretty but I think I am Biased
4 She looks better in photo
5 Damn where is jason?

Is it an omen?! FUCK! WHY MUST I SEE HER?!

Tuesday, November 18, 2008, 8:53 PM

I feel like I am in the eden's garden. Filled with luscious apples that speaks of true sweetness. Daddy made it a point to warn us, not to eat the forbidden apples. They are truly evil, he said.

Dad left the garden in my charge. A swirl of wind blew and the fragrance of the sweet apples enveloped my senses. How can one be that sweet, I asked myself. How is it like if I take a bite?

My principles conflicted desires. Daddy dutifully mentioned not to be near it. Is rightfully wrong. The apple dangled right in front of my face. I am fighting back. Fighting back my desire and urges.

Regrets. Either ways, I will end up regretting. Regret not doing it for I may not have another chances. Regret doing it for I betrayed my principles. Tell me, what am I supposed to do?

Thursday, November 13, 2008, 9:42 AM

Ok,exam's over!

Thank god!

Last exam in UQ.

The place where we have lunch.

After a delayed reaction to write about Jason's "event", I realised I have nothing much to say.

Is ambiguous but I know I did the right thing. I didn't let anything happened.
I was stalking, as usual, on facebook and he is having a bbq at his place this sunday. Claire, his gf commented. Obviously, they are still in a relatively good relationship.

No point illustrating what had happened. Seems like is just smoke. Nothing much, indeed.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008, 8:17 PM

I have so much to say but I am kinda busy with exams now... Wait for me, for I will update on the event with Jason.

Yes, the legendary Jason.

Sunday, November 09, 2008, 12:57 AM

I was told that I am competitive. Am I?

For real.

Never like the limelight shining at me. Never like to be standing on the podium to receive the achieved medal of recognition. To me, I just like to be wall flower. Irony, indeed.

In this dog eat dog world, all I seek is solace and peace. Never like fights but will not never backed down one, if deem needs.

Am I denying? I don't wish to explain further. Guess I am failing as a friend, a human. At least, I am still not too bad as a sister to my siblings.

At least.