Jacify My Statement.

Recently, i am overcome by this unknown feeling.A feeling I can't decipher. A point of low? U just feel unknowingly down. Is it even down?

Nothing much happened during the winter break. School starts today for me, neither looking forward nor hating the idea of going back. Everything seems mundane to me now. Nothing seems to interest me; not even wii. I seem to totally give up on myself, trying to be someone that people think I should be or to be.

On the other note, the guys, are still "playing" their own game which I clearly lose track following up with.

I guess is just school and the idea that after this semester, I will either be in Sg or continuing wandering around in Brissy.

Hey peeps, I am not emo-ing here. Life is great. Guess one can never be happy with what they have hur.

Knew peeps, new fears instilled, more grievances and definitely ample dreams to achieve.

Till then, while I compartmentalised my feelings.

Wednesday, July 09, 2008, 6:22 PM

Life has never been any better... without a constant figure barking at my back. I am not complaining, just that we all need to be free to path our route in the manner we always dream of.

New Zealand has been the greatest challenge for me,not physically nor monetarily, to open my senses and absorb whatever my eyes captured. Is amazing. The slick hitting painfully on my face, the cold biting wind leaving its trail on my red cheeks. Sitting at the beach, watching the beauty of life. I swallowed the urge to sob. This is what I want in life, able to do what I want and of course fulfilling them; striking everything on the list.

I may not have everything in life but whatever i have now is what I want. If you grasp what I mean.

Life being a balance, I can't have both side of the world. I accepted it. If doing something to protect myself leads me to lose it, I'll accept the consequences. Can't I be too chicken for life?