Jacify My Statement.

I really miss the company of great friends whom you can chat with about almost anything in the world, without them judging you and just taking you for who you are, never laughing at how silly your dreams are and instead, joining in the fun.

Missed.

Monday, November 26, 2007, 1:26 PM

Went to The Victory, is a club that plays house music. Was pretty crowded just that the duo prefers hip hop/RnB. Smirnoff bottle cost 4.50 which is considered dirt cheap in a club.

As usual, von n I were in our own dancing world, then came two kiddos.

Kiddo: Hey You guys dance moves are so cute! Where are you from? Korean? (stared at me)
Von: Thanks and she is not from Korea.
me:(IGNORED)Heart thinking, wait till you grow all your hairs, then we talked about it. Super Off pick-up lines.

Kiddo: Come on girls, dance with us. My friends will like to know you two.
Von And I: Continue dancing till he waltz off.

Me: WAH LAU! WE LOOKS LIKE KIDS MEH?! HE OBVIOUSLY BARELY 21 LAR! IMAGINE FLIRTING WITH MY OWN YOUNGER BROTHER?!

We laughed our heads off and continued to drink the nights away.

Sunday, November 25, 2007, 4:08 PM

Is insane. What little things we shared has so much influence in me. From me smiling away, to me swallowing my anger. How come we just can't be normal?! Like a casual talk or some random jokes, like what you are having with others?

I am not asking for the sky nor you plucking the god damn moon down for me. Just be like before. Don't deliberately ignore me. Don't.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007, 6:00 PM

A wine is hand, sitting on the couch, hands flipping the latest tabloid magazine. Heavenly, especially after a day hard work on chores and exams.

Never been a lover for wine but after that exhibit, it gave me a lot of insights and I will never see wine in that same light again. The zest, the tingles and the characters. Things that run through my head when I sipped my Chardonnay.

What should I do during my Summer Holiday?! Sun tanning? Hiking or just slacking around? Plans running through my heads as if there's so much time for me to do all.

Did I mentioned I miss partying? Yesh, I miss Partying lar! WITH MY CLUBBING KA! YES U!!!! U !!! U!!!

Am going to drag von with me to QUT Dorm Party with me this friday and party with the Germans. Party with the Germans! YEAh YEah YEah!

Pics From the Wine Exhibit

These wine glasses claim to make wine taste better... whatever it is... it costs 145 for 4 glasses.

Do u know, all construction workers or watsoever wear this luminous green shirt?!

Oh yah, the angmohs we were working with are all younger than us lar! WTH! They look fucking old!! I can't believe that some are barely 20 lor! Ridiculous lar!

Saturday, November 10, 2007, 4:58 PM

Guess who they look like.

Is an easy guess... Come on.
These are Von's school mates in TAFE that I worked with in the "Good Food and Wine" Exhibition.

With Stacey

With Matthew

BTW, I conclude that von takes ugly pictures. None of which looks nice -_-

Friday, November 09, 2007, 9:50 PM

The feeling of being disregarded as an normal human being, is revolting. Using skin colour as an excuse to deem others less worthy is an act of an fool. No words were exchanged directly, but stares, noses pointing to the sky, were hints of arrogance towards his own kind. The White.

While, others who weren't as "lucky" to be borne with fanciful coloured eyes and hairy arms were seem as second class citizens to them, whom they labeled as "rice bowl snatchers".

Not all of them are like that, but it takes one of such cases to ruin ones' beautiful day.

Everyday, I am striving to prove my worth as an Singaporean Chinese. To be accepted as a human being who does speak good English.

Why am I doing all this?! I don't need their approval. Is my life that I am leading, I need no fools to judge. Fools who doesn't know they are always people who are better than they are.

I came through. Think true.

Is nothing wrong being me.

Wednesday, November 07, 2007, 5:36 PM

You hooked up and it was xiansational! This ger was jumping like a monkey at mambo jambo.. so sessy!! yo yo yo.

That's what my friend described me -_-

Thursday, November 01, 2007, 8:13 AM

Shivered in anger. The uncontrollable turmoil in me starts leaking.He walked into my room and apologised. Clayton, don't patronise me, if you wish, do a better job, cause whatever you did stinks.

"Enough, the tension you caused is unbearable. If you think is an asian thingy, so be it. I have nothing to say, the door is there."

"So, you want me gone?"

"Yes, for the better of everyone.Yes, I want you gone. I can pay more to have a peaceful night. You do not have to be the good bloke you claimed, insisting that you stayed to help out with money. If any help I seek, it will be from my mother, not you."

"Von, do you want me gone?! I don't care about your mum. I am the best room mates you can ever have!"

And it went on for a few hours.

I kind of pity him. Standing in front of the door, trying ways and means to talk. Spite doesn't work, instigate doesn't work, verbal assault doesn't work and emotional blackmail doesn't work too.

Seeing you standing at the doorway, crying, I felt a pang of guilt. Pity engulfed me, I know I shouldn't do this to a man who seriously needs help. But is suffocating and we have to go through this almost every week. New issues and problems will surface every week like a venomous cycle. One minutes you play nice, another,ignore and the next, you cry and attempt suicide.

I wish you all the best, clay. Hate is never the word to use. I don't hate you, maybe dislike. You seriously need help, seek churches or anywhere. Living in denial will never solve your current mental issues.

Girls, open your eyes, the man you are with now may one day tear you apart by using verbal assault, emotional blackmails or some underhand ways to drag you down with them. Be strong , be happy because you are worthy for what the world have ahead for you.

12:42 AM

Clayton took a knife and was about to kill himself in the living room till I got out and remove the deadly weapon that fall onto the couch.

Apparently, Von was stopping him, causing the thumps and bangs.

MAN! Grow some balls pls.Broke off for a godly 1 month le leh! WAH LAU!

He is still crying like a girl. What a way to hold back a relationship, using suicide. DIE LAR... For all I care. Of all time, my exams period?! Can choose a better day to die?! Like During Summer?! Summer is not bad... A bit hot but at least I am having holiday.